Happy New Year

I guess I would be untruthful if I didn't say that I was happy this year was over, and I really don't have a "New Years Resolutions" except one, and that is for me to know.
My Seasonal time was bad, and I really was looking forward to this time of year. Starting off with purchasing a great pair of boots that I couldn't afford at all but thought how great they be for all the events. They never came out of the box.
Starting off with a 50th anniversary party where my outfit was so outdated , due to a time factor, I fit into the "what was she thinking" category. Then the planning of a surprise party that never happened and becoming totally chaotic, but big lessoned learned there, on listening and gift giving, and NEVER messing with another's motorcycle no matter how good the intentions are, guess the whole lesson actually was there are consequences with "good intentions" .
After that, a very uncomfortable Thanksgiving, one of the worst, realizing that Family can drift apart just like anything -or- anyone else, and it certainty doesn't have to. Make the most of the time.
December held the same deck of cards, beginning with a mad dash for "Guitar Hero" and the only light spot through this all, was when I got it, actually feeling "cool" with that in My hands, I had joy in showing that off on the way to the car.
At that point it was the little things. Though, that lead me on literally countless chases for "Rockband" which didn't fit any of my systems, ultimately , I had a WII, a PS 2, PS 3, and an XBOX all at the same time to be ready for the right "Rockband" that would work, and finally finding one for the PS 3, and just to end up returning them all, "Rockband" included, because I thought it was crap. Yes , I know everyone thinks its great, but I think it was WAY over hyped, and obviously the mess I made with these video games was obviously a need to fill something missing from the season.
It was also the first time with no decorating, though I did try with a little tree, that was soon donated to a club, after I felt the tension from it. Supposedly I misread that and dashed out and got some lights, to decorate a indoor plant which was only lit once. Didn't see as many people as I had hoped to during the season and after countless pursuing, finally found some friends whom were having a Christmas eve dinner, which was much needed.
The next day, I had hope of a gift, and I had one ready just in case, but neither made their appearance. Soon after that found out the "New Years" plans that were had were moved to a location that was 5 hours away, so I am typing My blog for New Years, which is OK.
Maybe it all sounds cynical to some point, but there was a lot learned through all this, mostly I just rolled with it , no I'm lying, I was pissed at some of the events that took place.
Through it all, I realize (or think) we make our own luck, I used to think luck happened to people, but I almost positive we make it, simply by attitude alone.
This was proven when I took my displeasure to visit the "Vets" on Christmas day, and found my whole outlook on things had changed immensely.
And as much as change bothers me, there are a lot of things that I hope to change. Most of all to become more motivated with My art, and not bitch so much about it, wherever it goes it goes. And for that matter not bitch at people who work in stores.
I am also going to finish something I began 10 years ago....the rest ..is just the rest...and the last night of the "black blog" and hopefully get those boots out of the box, because in some ironic way they symbolize something now...going somewhere.